phone addiction
disheartening, seeing get cell phone sober
on my resolutions list, now going on
3 years. I misplace my phone absentmindedly
this morning,
and think about it longingly
all day.
at lunch, it hurts that I cannot take a picture.
I pretend it's about not recording all that
hard work, but I can feel the skin of my fingers
keen with touch-hunger.
like skin-hunger, but for plastic buttons,
luminescent screens. a low-down urge
to memorialize the meal needling into me:
I can no longer be a person eating a meal she cooked
for friends, enjoying the experience and later
being warmed by the memory.
as all these times
seem thin to me now.
the real world a single dimension,
weightless.
on my resolutions list, now going on
3 years. I misplace my phone absentmindedly
this morning,
and think about it longingly
all day.
at lunch, it hurts that I cannot take a picture.
I pretend it's about not recording all that
hard work, but I can feel the skin of my fingers
keen with touch-hunger.
like skin-hunger, but for plastic buttons,
luminescent screens. a low-down urge
to memorialize the meal needling into me:
I can no longer be a person eating a meal she cooked
for friends, enjoying the experience and later
being warmed by the memory.
as all these times
seem thin to me now.
the real world a single dimension,
weightless.
This is so real! It's strange to think about cell phones without cameras, and even no cell phones at all, really not that long ago. I remember being in high school thinking texting was strange-- why not just call? :)
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