janus

we piled blankets in the kitchen
we looped back around
we saw you on the beach
cold from waiting in sandals
as the night set in
mystical for reappearing
almost unrecognizable for a moment
we passed a crystal around
sitting on the boardwalk--
were we saying goodbye?
i had to leave before the ceremony ended
my blood told me go
you were at the beach in ireland
you were at the beach in mexico
knee deep in sun grass
i looped around you
and forgot to touch your shoulder
forgot the spread the blanket
on the matted meadow
forgot how to walk arm in arm
delicate elbows woven
or if we used to do that